Twelve

Me and Serendipity are like, really, really cool

My ex-wife could not STAND whenever there would be issue that concerned the family unit, how I would chain myself to the most positive result, almost ignoring the possibility of something negative happening. I would respond to her concerns and doubts with the phrase that I have to blow the dust off of, hadn't used it in quite a while now.

"See, I don't worry about the worst that can happen, because that is what happens to other people, it DOESN'T happen to me!"

So I have a desire to 1) try to go back in my past to find a once love and make it a new love (crap tv show be darned, it is well know what a bad idea that is!), and possibly 2) moving to the middle of nowhere to be NEAR someone who has said they aren't into me 'like that'. This also doesn't take into account my health and stability issues ... man, doesn't this seem like a recipe for tragedy?

How cool is that?

12. "If the leader is filled with high ambition and if he pursues his aims with audacity and strength of will, he will reach them in spite of all obstacles."

To be as 'bright eyed' as I am, I had to have something to 'mitigate' the prevailing feelings that exists in life, the 'you can't' crew that only sees failure ... FOR YOU and your pursuits. They never look at themselves and what is going right or wrong in their lives and give good advice based on that. The just want to tell you how doomed, your ambitions are set to failure.

Life is good, and it can be great, if that is what YOU make it.

Mookie stopped believing in the good that could be achieved in life with me. Cool, but for the life that she wanted, I think that the horse pulling that wagon has left the station. See, it is never enough to just 'want'. The part of the bargain that separates those who 'did' and those who 'didn't' is the 'pursuit' part of the deal. How hard did they chase what they wanted?

As I have said, I know that it is normally a bad, bad, VERY BAD idea to date and go after an ex. But man, I have met so many super cool and nice women, that I wanted to give 'my little fairy' (that is what Tee Jay called 'it') a break, and go and find someone who have and understanding of what I bring to the table, and they could imagine the direction their life would head in, with a degree of certainty, rather than the 'crossing of fingers' that goes on at the start of a new relationship.

From where I sit, many women fail to understand that they aren't daises anymore, that they are flawed and have Dom Perignon on their minds, but Olde English money in their pockets. Far be it from me to infringe on their hopes, but my thing is, what makes MY WANTS any less likely than THEIRS?

My style of leadership is taken from a cat who knows a thing or two about leadership, Sun Tzu. He said that a poor leader is one who says, "I did it." The good leader is the one who says, "They did it." But the best leader is the one where THE MEN says, "We did it!"

I know what being taken for granted is about. Angry ex wife, in our sit down, admitted to that. Didn't take a mental heavyweight to hear it in Mookie's voice, but with the both of them, it could have been concern for the uncertainty they face. Since they can't take a joke, screw 'em.

See, I believe very much in myself and what I bring to a relationship. The thing is, finding someone who values those things and shares in a vision that we can achieve.