Saturday, May 2, 2009


Cleaning up some clutter ...

Got worn out today. The WIND, not the cold or the heat, is the weather condition that bother me the most. And it blew out of the west ... and the direction I had to start off my day in? WEST!!

In the movie 'Chasing Amy' there is a scene between Jason Lee and Ben Affleck characters where they discuss the pragmatism of Ben's romantic pursuits.

Before I get to that, I want to say that I absolutely adore women. Adore them. I don't quake at feminist ... in fact, I know the difference between Gloria Steinem, Camile Paglia and Andrea Dworkin. Glanced over Betty Friedan's 'The Feminine Mystique'. So it isn't like I say what I say without trying to learn about the subject.

But when Phil McGraw was a guest on Oprah, I liked his style. It reminded me of my Mom, who was as 'tell it like it is' as she could be. I am sure that is one of the reason I prefer that someone come to me 'straight away'. I would rather 'deal' than have someone not face up and let me know what is what. My situation with Tee Jay, is hung up over this, as I don't think she is being 'straight' with me.
AKA thinks because TO HER ( to anyone else ..? not so much, but then that is part of our problem), I am hard on women. She forgets how she promoted herself to me, and how she assessed cats in my circumstance. That is of no never mind right now, but I don't want to seem like I am picking on women, and I am far from being some bitter misogynist.

It is what it is. I am willing to take what I have coming so that I can work on what I can, to get to be the person I want to be. And then I will ATTRACT the people that I want to be in my life, and find my partner.

Cathy, over at 'Dare To Think', made a post recently that was about time, and how we are a part of 'it' and that we are at once experiencing it and being it at the same time. At least that is how it came to me. I have to mediate on it, because I think it is crucial for me to have a better understanding of my 'why' to Nebraska.

Anywho, the 'Four Way Road' will be the theme for this week.


Cathy said...

How extraordinary to read more into the unique part of the universe that is YOU. I'm smiling to realize someone knew immediately what that post was saying. My friend I believe your life's path will have many traps and stones - this is the way deep-feeling ppl like yourself come into being, you're tested somehow by whatever force controls time and space - this universe. I hope this is coming across properly - we're all special and unique ppl yet some of us see things that are opaque to others. I feel your one of them, your inner eye is open and your mind is free. Clear. Aware. I enjoy talking to you and regret the lapse in visits. It occurs that your plans will take on their own life, yes? Don't be afraid, don't be timid. And I support you.

Indigo said...

I'm the same way you are with dealing with people. I would rather some one were straight up with me, instead of doing a dance around what they really mean. Every once in awhile someone will say something snarky in comments. It's not the comment that bugs me is they won't come out and say what they really mean. It makes me doubt their sincerity. (Hugs)Indigo