Sunday, December 4, 2011

JUST AN ENTRY

THIS SHOULD HAVE BEEN A FOOTBALL WEEKEND


I almost literally ‘slept’ on the StateWisconsin rematch and I had to set the alarm to make sure that I caught the Lions game (on as I type). This weekend, this WEEK for that matter, I have been drifting in and out of sleep which is SO unusual for me. Also, I have been dragging around in a funk, despite the many times I have logged in to see my grades! However, the lack of an incident or a happening preceding my mood, I hope that it passes just as it came.


Friday was just a long day. Monday will be one as well, because I have to go from school all the way out near where Nebraska works, which is on the west side of town, and that may be a few hours of appointment time there. Unlike the Motor, I have not traversed Omaha in the dead of night, or I should say, none of any length, since I have been here. A few times I have stolen out to go to the gym or taken a left on Leavenworth and gone to Baker’s for some groceries, but those aren’t big trips. Monday is going to be a ‘big’ trip, getting there as well as coming home. And that is something that I am not looking forward to.


Lou posted how much he liked Beethoven’s 7th and I went ahead and looked for it on You Tube. Because I am woefully out of sync with movies, I had no idea that it was used in the movie ‘The King’s Speech’. I don’t know if this is the full scene or no, but given the history of the moment, the immensity of it all, I get the feeling that it is a superb film. The music captures the moment and I kind of get the feeling that I can sense some of what the movement may mean to Lou as well.




I have let this video play and play as the nuances of the notes flow over me and filling the gaps left in the cracks of my current state.  These are the moments when I feel this cloud come over me that I try to appreciate my solitude. See, I don’t think that company would improve my mood or lift my spirit. I guess it could it be said that maybe if I had a companion that I would not be in such a mood… I don’t know if I’d agree though. Instead of my ‘harshing someone’s mellow’ or being compelled to conceal how I am feeling, I just get to ‘experience’ what it is I am feeling and bring myself up out of it.


Anywho… the music actually helped pull me up some and I will get back into ‘being’ first thing tomorrow morning. But right now I feel a little tired so I am going to call it a night. Later!

4 comments:

Bucko (a.k.a., Ken) said...

Time to kick it up a notch and get back into your game.

Lovebabz said...

I do not know if you have a faith in a higher power. Prayer is a beautiful way to connect the inner you with the divine you as you make your way in the outer world....feel me?

Keep the faith.

LceeL said...

Wow, man. I knew they used the 7th in the movie - but it's not one I've seen yet and to see it in this context just blows me away.

Thanks.

FrankandMary said...

I'm suspicious of people who post almost constantly about irrepressibly upbeat days. Achievements are rooted in work & risk, & you might just be overtired from all the effort you've been putting into making your life better. I am thinking you will be on the upswing soon.
And sometimes we all need a little extra sleep. ~Mary