One of the unique things about me, is that you don't have to 'like' me for me to like or admire you. Those things are independent of each other, and they always have been. I can see where that would annoy some folks, who would sneer, sometimes doing and saying mean and hurtful thing with the intent of driving me away.
It doesn't work that way.
What I see in you is MEANT for me to see in you. Period. All the considerations that have to be made in my mind happen so fast as to be an unconscious happening. Every once in a while, things have 'slowed down' enough for me to see and understand what it is that is going on. If I am lucky, I can even 'plan' for the slowdown, and get a good look at what is going on.
Last month, and this month is that time for me.
THE BACK FORTY
I went to a nearby Burger King this weekend ... and the young manager recognized me from a lifetime ago, pre-Mookie II. He is a young cat, early 20's, but is a manager at the restaurant. We reminisced about his days of seeing me at the Mickey D's (I prefer BK, but the dollar menu at the Golden Arches is always tempting!), and talked about his progression in management in the food service industry.
We chatted, along with his store manager who was present about a variety of topics, from 401 K's to being in corporate position in the industry, when it occurred to me, why isn't THIS story being told?? He should have been telling ME about investing and building a career!
So I have decided to write it myself. I asked the cat if I could come by and interview him and maybe write the story. I told him if we did catch lightning in a bottle, we will worry about that when it comes. But I think given the circumstance here in the Motor, that I could put a feel good/you can do it to spin to this, that is going to read like a REAL urban fairytale that is coming true.
LETTING MY EXPERIENCE WORK FOR ME
Because I have had my heart broken, and broken a few in my time, I think I know what I NEED TO DO to manage my way through the leaving of the Mook's and the 'whatevers' regarding Tee Jay. I have been reading a sampling of a blog 'Getting Past Your Past'. The authoress/host Susan Elliot has written a couple of books on the subject, one of which I will check out of the library today. The direction that the blog and the comments go in, is one that I will reserve further judgement on, only to say I don't agree with the direction those folks seem to be going in.
Even when I get the 'squirrlies' and want to talk with Tee Jay, I keep picturing something painful happening, like falling off the porch carrying my bike, or the sharp, sudden pain of a splinter going under my finger nail ... and other pleasant experiences that keeps me from doing anything. Of course, I still do the 'I will call her after I reach this objective' thing, which has done well so far.
To me, the main thing is to remember the main thing. With Tee Jay, I would have 'accept the pickle', and I am not even getting a kiss nor is anyone using a lubricant ... not even a piece of gum.
In short, I would have to suffer such a loss of self respect to even do something like that to myself.
While I understand COMPLETELY that one can have strong feelings for a person, I can't understand why someone would want to humiliate themselves for the sake of something that is gone.
THE SECOND HALF OF THE INNING
A friend from the service found me on Facebook today! I teared up, thinking that she still remembered me ... I don't know why I am surprised that people who have found me have good memories of me, anyway. It stands to serve that they think fondly of a brother ... haters are going to hate anyway.
So far, we've made tentative plans to meet. She is in VIRGINIA, and is almost as neat as Carolina, but not quite! Without a doubt I could ...
Really, this was about putting my story thoughts into the air, and hopefully it will catch fire, and the difference of opinion on how to deal with a break up. Maybe I will 'beat that drum' a bit. Otherwise, I am cool and trying to stay out of the hospital at least until after Ken and Beth come and go. Haven't seen 'Star Trek' yet, and I am figuring the best place to see it would be the Star Fairlane!! Did watch 'Casino Royale' with Daniel Craig. Good movie, and he is a good Bond guy, makes James 'tough'!