... when an ill wind blows ...

 

… no really, what do YOU do ..?

 

At some point during the week, either late Tuesday or early Wednesday, I took off and misplaced my watch.  It is a simple Timex Iron Man that I picked up on sale from Meijer’s.  The Movado and Tag Huer days are in the long gone … the Timex fits all my needs.  Especially the most important one, of simply keeping time and date for me.  

 

               Knowing where I am relative to the stream of time is uber important to me.  Between some mostly forgotten Malcolm X quote to just knowing where I relate in how we measure the universe, having a watch on to keep time is important for me.  So every thing feels a little distorted, not fun house mirror, but the buzz distortion from a beer.  

 

               So Thursday I was able to muscle through just on my ‘want-to’ and determination.  But today was going to be different, and I felt thatlast night.  ‘Senior moments’ take a special significance for me, so I had to steadymyself.  “I was forgetful at my best,” I told myself.  “And making do with what you have is a natural thing, Mark.”

 

               I woke up early as usual.  Lil’ Mook was not going to school and Mookie was in bed, not going to work.  She had a concert at a casino that was a nice piece away from here.  Have to mention, as she is a big LL Cool J fan, that when Interpol and TV on the Radio came to Motown, couldn’t swing time to get me up and down, and as to Jill Scott …

 

               But I am good with that.  No really, I am.  The burr is that of all her siblings, and there are 5, the only one that I have NEVER LIKED is the one she is went with …

 

… now, back to our regularly scheduled programme …

 

The way out is through

         -NIN song title, ‘The Fragile’

 

               When I was eating steak and salad, earning loot from being able to beat people up, I was a big fan of the ‘No Fear’ brand.  ‘No Fear’ made tee shirts with ‘attitude’ and many of them were sports related.  I have only a few of them, in fact the one that came to mind this morning as I faced my personal anxieties, I no longer own … it was a favourite that was worn to tatters.  It said only this –  FACE YOUR FEARS LIVE YOUR DREAMS

 

               It would have been accepted if I went around the house, and let my inner turmoil keep me inside and away from the world.  I had to stay home anyway with lil’ Mook.  So just lay around, do a little housekeeping, and let the world pass me by.  I made my journal entry and I remembered that shirt … ‘live your dreams’, it said. 

               I got up, got dressed so that I could get a run in. I didn't know how cold it was in Mid-Michigan, but I know enough to just run 2 miles and call it a day!  Did my exercises, went with Mookie and sprayed off her car and aired up her tires.  She drove me to the library where I was able to get a film, ‘Frailty’ for my evening.  I joked a little with lil’ Mook before she sequestered herself on the computer for the majority of the night.  Too bad I didn’t get to share this movie with anyone … but maybe I will share it later … may even watch it again, just to get it set in.