>> well, here is another one of those stifled nights ... and I am extremely ill of complaining about them ...
>> my sensibilities are being tested ... because right now, I want what makes sense to me, to do just that ... I cannot even describe why I feel this way now, but I do ... <<just tired of being on the road, in at best adversarial territory ... just would like for a change, just a little while of what I think should happen, to happen ... <<<... that my feelings occupy such a second class (at best) status is growing quite badly on me ... it isn't something that I want to be accustom