GENERAL ORDER #2

AFTER THE ECSTASY ...


...the laundry. Before something builds up and becomes an issue that needs more introspection, I measure it against my primary goal, which is to be happy, and the only added option is to be in a loving relationship. If something comes through 'the laundry', then I look at it further.


But when it comes out 'clean', I do with it what you are supposed to do with clean laundry, I put it away. Still trying to 'get some sleep', but it will happen. Put some stuff away, and it is NO WORRIES from this point on.


NUMBER TWO


"I will obey my special orders and perform all my duties in a military manner."


See, keep reading and the Army will have a 'reg' for it! When things aren't found in a 'general' scope, then it becomes 'special'. And though it may indeed be special, it does NOT absolve you from doing your duties.


And this was something that I have determined from my experiences.


Many are stubborn in pursuit of the path they have chosen, few in pursuit of the goal. Friedrich Nietzsche


That is what I gather from general order #2. The goal and not the path is what you are after. You have to keep your cool, remain focused on what it is you want. Many times it is doing things and weighing them against what you want most v. what you want NOW.


Reg'lar readers are aware that I have spoken of 'Darkhorses', things that are occuring as I make my own plans and act on their implementation. The fates could put other options before me ... and what will I do?


But that is as far as I go with the 'what if' kinds of things, allowing for the possiblity that the unforseen can happen. If something happens, it happens. Not even going to speculate on that, because all of my care in planning is needed to make the transition to making a new, and full life for me somewhere else.


I have made my decision, and all the things that I do is measured against how it affects my overarching goal and what I feel is the best of all options for me to make that happen. I have mentioned how I feel about the people in my life, and that the #1 conceptual project in my life is to get to Nebraska and make it my business to making my happiness happen. Period.


SORRY ABOUT THE JARGON ...


...and gobbeldy-gook. But that is another thing about following 'special' orders ... you are the one that are supposed to understand how things are supposed to fit. There are plenty of 'accidents' that turn into big things ... I kind of feel that 'special orders' are like that.


If you are 'doing you' like the kids suggest, then when someone is 'getting you', you will pick up on that. Though I am no onephile, one of the things that impressed me about Tee Jay, is that on our first date, she knew how to choose the wines to go with our dinner.


I was able to pick up on her desire for more than what she was dealing with in her previous relationships. I can remember her telling me that she was tired of the same ol' crap games, being on the side, and a secondary player in someone's life. She told me that she knew if she wanted something different, then she had to give something different a chance.


But now ... there is a different climate, a different je ne sais quois. And there is no room for doubt and the unknown in making a decision. And that is that, with that. Women often find themselves up that darned creek, messing around with someone when they 'don't know' whether or not the guy is 'their man' ...


... what do they expect? If someone makes you feel insecure, and uneasy, then you have your answer as it pertains to whatever it is you thought y'all were doing. I mean, times have changed and if you are good being Kurt Russell and Goldie Hawn, there is nothing wrong with that for you.


But you don't get to let an atmosphere settle around a relationship and then want something that isn't in your special orders determine how you act...


AND YES ...


... there is a General Order for that.


Still not sleeping ... I refused to get out of bed and sign on ... didn't fall asleep until I fell asleep, which was well after 2 a.m. But after my run this morning, I feel that my 'clock' is being reset, and I can expect to get back on my schedule.