RANDOM ... SORTA

WHAT DOES IT ALL MEAN?




First, turn your watch back to when this was a new song ... mind you, I never took and mind altering narcotics (at least not until my 40's, and I got to hang out with a dream in Chicago) in my life, so any other 'meanings' to this song, is lost upon me. I know what I got out of it.



This song had to come out and caught my ear in a period that prolly resembled what I am going thru now. I was on my way back up from being where ever I was, and this song caught my ear. Felt it was about a cat who was 'feeling' someone, and they were feeling them ... only not so much.



Sort of like me and Nebraska.



For me, it is cool that she doesn't think we will be 'all that'. On the basic, most facile level, I understand. But she makes me feel 'so alive', and I don't think that she gets that.



When I think about moving out yonder west, it is about her, and it is about so much more at the same time. I want to have fun, want to see things thru another person's eyes. But it wasn't the band alone that inspired my to incoporate 'Love and Rockets' as a part of my lingo, if you will.

There was a comic book that I think came out around the same time or perhaps a little before, with the title 'Love & Rockets' that I used to read (please, don't ask what happened to the ginchiest collection in the Metro Area ... go to the Army for a few years and ...) and it was like the current comic are now, going straight to mature themes of relationships and dealing with life and its myriad struggles. I guess you could say they combined in my head, and for me, one always brings up the other.

They both mean the same to me though. Struggle, but be glad that you can struggle and you have something to look forward to. I believe that it is a better way to be, maintaining the hope and belief that if you keep trying, good things will happen. Before you know it, you will be on your way to DOING...

BETH DITTO

First time I saw her, it was at the Majestic, opening for indie rock goddesses, Sleater-Kinney (they, along with the Smiths/Moz and the Clash are the three best bands, like EVER!) with, wait for it ... TEE JAY! She came across as a shy girl when I saw her after their set, wouldn't even let me by her a drink for her great performance.

Guess she is all grown up, now!

She did a nude cover for some magazine ... and that was her 2nd time posing 'au naturel'! She is a big girl, and I thought, think she is attractive. As for that matter, what is the big to do about Jess Simpson? She looks fine to me? I mean, I still wouldn't choose either over Jill Scott, but I am saying ...

TELEVISION

Super cool band. But I am talking about tv shows. I have been trying for the past two years to incoporate regular watching in my 'routine', so that I can find other tools to 'connect' with people by. That is how I got into 'The Amazing Race', so I could coffee klatch with SD at work. That starts up tonight. If I haven't mentioned 'Friday Night Lights' is another great show, then there you go ... NOW WATCH IT.

ALL'S QUIET ON THE WESTERN FRONT

No, Tee Jay never called ... and AKA didn't bother with me. That is cool. Did hear from Nebraska, which was cool, and of course, traded wishes with the Fly Skimmie. But I have met someone and got their #. Haven't spoken to them, and I can't see myself saying anything other than what I have been saying to all of you and myself ... that I am aiming to leave within the year, and that is pretty much all that is in my sights.

Surprisingly, I am not at all 'pressed' for companionship. I mean, she is a nice enough person, but there is something that says, "Mark, it isn't about this ... it is about THAT", and with them not being related, I am of the mind to apologize and tell her that I am not interested in her friendship.

Oh, I know I am going to have to deal with being told 'I am not all that'. But I never said that I was. But it IS my goal ..!

And I guess that is why I will re-examine 'Darkhorses' that have begun to appear in the field.