DARKHORSES

See, really I am not much of a drinker ...

So I can't do 'drunk calls'. Y'all know the ones that you make, when you want company, want to be acknowledged by someone. Been somewhat difficult tonight, as I have wanted to reach out and touch someone.

Watched a way cool documentary, 'Why We Fight'. I give it two thumbs up. Thing about it, is I wanted to share it with someone. Sure, AKA would have been a good movie partner, but I couldn't bring myself to call her.

Pride? Hard to say. But a phrase that I haven't trotted out, is about getting what you want being a choice between 'doing what you want NOW as opposed to doing what you want MOST'.

That is what is going to get me thru this episode, this journey, my life. What do I want most. This works with getting fit, too. I guess when I get back to talking about that, fitness, I will get on the soapbox and talk that out too.

But I am here now, so I don't call nobody!

THE SAGE STEELE PHENOMENON

The companion to the 'doing' is 'if you never tried something, how do you say to yourself that you did all that you could?'. Watched a thingy about George Foreman tonight. Won't bore you with all the stuff, but did anyone here know that the reason he started to box again, was to raise money for his church?

He stopped boxing to get closer to the Lord (that is what he has said on occasion), but he felt that he had to box to do the work of the Lord. So he boxed. Not time for the Paul Harvey story line yet. You do know that as much money as boxing has brought him, from both careers, that it is the grilling machine that has launched his wealth into the stratosphere.

Two cats, had a product that they knew worked, but no way to promote it. Picked George, who they could afford. He had the smarts to sign his name not just for money, but for a piece of the product. NOW, you know the rest of the story.

But what would have happened, if he hadn't tried to do anything? If he had let what everyone else say keep him from something he was set out to get done? I have said it before, it is funny how good things happen when you stick to your faith, and faith begins with yourself.

There was a 'newness' to his boxing again, a 'uniqueness' to his grilling machine. And a 'specialness' to Nixxie.

REMEMBER, I DO HAVE MY PREFERENCE ...

...but like I told the lady at the start, 'Everybody likes what looks good!'.

Nixxie is on the same frame as Sage, mayhaps a little bigger, as TV adds weight. She was a stud softball player and basketball player, so she was very athletic.

When we were trying to be a couple, she saw a few pictures of some 'exes'. She asked why I was trying to talk to her, when 'this is what you like'. And I told her, 'But everyone likes what looks good, and girl, you look good to me!'

I have dated a few 'Mica Girls' or 'Slim Goodies'. But they would occupy less than 10% of my 'list'. To be perfectly honest, though I don't ask for weights, I have dated a couple who had me by a pound or two. It is what I like, and I will let Freud and 'em (actually, I thought Jung was better, but that is me, the contrarian!) say why that is.

So having 'Mica Babes' like Sage Steele tug at me, is a subconscious sign to look for someone else, and look in other 'spots'. For instance, should I date someone appreciably younger, mid to late 20's? I don't know, what do you think?

Listening to ladies in my age group, it gets stultifying at times. Not that I am the brightest bulb on the tree, but so many are scarred and let the media shape their thoughts. The irony is, like with Tyler Perry for instance (a guilty pleasure), because brothers have be made to look so bad, they fail to see how he balances the responsibility, to where sisters would have to admit to their own 'f*cked up-ness', as to why they have such crap relationships.

Mookie for instance, let her relationship with the previous camper drag to its end. From what she said, she just did the same crap she did with me, slowly turning the faucet off. Instead of talking things out, and trying to find a solution, instead of coming back 'in' to the relationship, she turned 'in' to herself.

When I slipped out, I was like, what else could I do? For her, it was playing to type, and it didn't incur any big problems. Yet, there is some cowardice involved in handling things in such a manner. She couldn't look me in the eye and tell me she wasn't in love with me anymore. Goes to show, you never stop learning. Hadn't had that happen before.

FOOTBALL SATURDAY

I have my eye on the Texas - Texas Tech game tomorrow. Ohio State is , off this week. The early game, State at Wisconsin (I heard it's a Party State!), is going to be good, and one State needs to get if they are going to be a stronger program.

Wisconsin was my sleeper pick, but losing that close game to Michigan and following that up with a close loss to the Bucks, took the wind out of their sails. Something about losing the way that they lost, that leaves you set up to get blew out.

Hope State can keep 'em down.