Saturday, September 27, 2008

For What You Dream Of ...


Michigan is really looking like a 6 or 7 loss team, which is hard for me to swallow.  They have already fired up Utah, and kept Charlie Weis employed for at least another year.  The have two 'not gonna get one there' games on their schedule, Ohio State and Penn State.    Two games that they shouldn't win, against State and Illinois.  Purdue is so-so, but they might sneak the Wolverines.

Today's game against Wisconsin will be a character test.  The Badgers have been a team I have watched since they had Al Toon at wideout.  They don't seem to have a 'style point' mentality.  By a late field goal, or by three touchdowns, their primary focus is on having more points than you at the end of the game!

They will get there in Ann Arbor, because they are the better team.  But I want to see how Michigan competes, are they going to lay down, or are they going to rally around each other and play hard.  Sam McDuffie is a ball player, and he needs to put Michigan on his back for them to get to bowl eligibilty.

Before I went for my roadwork, I caught a bit of 'The Today Show', and caught the new girl at the news desk ... 'Carmen' ... 'Cameron' ..?  Whatever it is, I would make sure to learn it!  And this sets up nicely for the main thoughts in my mind.


A way cool song of the soundtrack for the way cool movie that launch Ewan McGregor, 'Trainspotting'.  Myself, I don't really have 'dreams', not often anyway at any point in my life.  Whenever I am asked about what I dream of, of what I fantasize about, it is actually hard for me to provide them with an answer, because if you met me, I would be busy in the process of making them happen, so I couldn't tell you what it was, other than to say that my actions will bring me the result that I want.

Nebraska is going to be a lucky gal!  I mean think about it, someone is willing to bend the trajectory of their life to meet yours ... I mean come on now!  I know that has to mean something!  Using the NFL draft as a metaphor, she is a top five pick, and she has all the 'measureables'.  There are some questions, because I think she comes from a 'mid-major' confrence.  Still, she is obviously one of the best people I have met in a long time.

Part of why I have been speaking more about her, in a direct fashion, and discussing the 'interpersonal, personal' part of my life, is to work out some of the things that I know will come up.  The celibacy part of this is difficult, but it gets a little easier each day (though as for that, it has to travel a light year to reach being simply 'tough'!), and the purpose talking about it, is not to brag, but to aviod the pitfalls that is commonly associated with that part of relationships.

Attachments get made on both sides, and you inherit certain responsibilities, certain obligations.  I don't need anyone showing up, all beside themselves with their idea of their being an 'us', when I am still certain (and that is about 65-70%) that I am not aiming to be bothered with staying in Detroit, or taking along anyone else.

Two folks that come to mind, AKA and SD, both talk that what I call, 'Samantha' crap, but when it comes down to it, they want someone to spend time with ... and I make people feel comfortable in themselves.  I would like to think that Nebraska felt that way as well, about my ability to make someone (her) feel comfortable and secure, that I gave her something to make her think I would fit in her life and enhance it.

... if she doesn't, well, there are others on the 'draft board' to choose from, and there are other 'needs on the team' that can be addressed.  But if she was to some how 'slip' to where I could draft her, I would call her name!

SD and AKA sorta have the 'give up' in them, and what ever reason it is there, I can't compete.  Too much thinking in doing that, and it is going to be a challenge to right my own ship (yes, every thing is a challenge, dear heart, a dare waiting to be taken up, a gauntlet thrown ...)  I don't want to be in the role of maybe misleading someone, because I want to have a clean launch, dontcha you know ..!


My hands are tired!  Next, gonna have to figure out how I am going to ramp up my fitness routine.  Fitness USA, a crap chain of workout places, has this $19 a month deal ... but I think you can only go to one location, and they alternate days, men one day, women the other.  I don't like not being able to go to the gym when I want to, and I am sure that it is only at one location, not a universal membership.

The YMCA is an option, as is Bally's.  Now, I could do a limited acess membership at either one, because I would be able to use the gym seven days.  Might be a coin flip ... less expensive but limited acess vs. higher cost, but better facilities (IMO) and greater acess ...

I know this is runnin' long, but I haven't talked about working out, and getting fit in quite awhile.  Last week I rode my bike over 200 culmative miles, and at a greater speed (I have a bike computer ... and I am STILL not as fast on my bike as Usain Bolt is on his feet!), which took a lot out of my legs.  So I am rebuilding my running legs, doing lighter milages and easing my way around.

Working out means a lot more to me, than it does to others.  I helps me feel confident, because it is something that I do well.  It isn't a sense of vanity (although, I have to tell you that I look GOOD ..!), more of a sense of mental stability.  Each time I work out, I know that I am going to be occupied with doing something that is totally benifical for me and that I didn't have to 'walk the fringes' to get to feel that good ...

... speaking of 'fringes ...


malagutigrrl said...

for me the creative process is what I'm good at and makes me feel good.  I write, I sculpt, I draw, I create things, I write songs, I sing them.  
working out has never been my thing (although I've always been a hiker).  And I'm a skinny wimp to prove it.
PS Of course, there's nothing whimpy about gigging.  And back in the day, that was  a workout all in itself.

lv2trnscrb said...

do you guys have Fitness 19 where you are Mark? that's the gym we belong to; its a no frills place but its $19.00 a month (or in our case we joined at $29.00 for the 2 of us); it has good equipment; no showers; but that's okay and ours is open 5:00 am to 10:00 p.m. Monday/Saturday; I think Sunday is 7:00 to 7:00. Plus you can go to any Fitness 19 no matter where they are at; YMCA sometimes has good gyms

I don't follow college football enough except I do know USC didn't do well this past Thursday against Corvallis; when I did follow it, I liked Penn State

take care of yourself


buckoclown said...

Making sure you have no strings is a good idea.  I am trying to get back into the workout routine, I feel so much better when I do.

toonguykc said...

Jayhawks are off this weekend.  Could you recommend a workout for their coach?  I keep expecting him to drop dead on the sidelines.  


abaleman666 said...

i hope it works out.  i am rooting for you from my little corner of the world here, and there is absolutely nothing wrong with thinking about things too much-- maybe if the general populous thought about things a little more the world would be a better place.

will you still blog when you go?

luvrte66 said...

We saw tonight that Michigan beat the Badgers. That had to give the Wolverines a boost!

I've read that women have a different reaction in a sexual relationship--there's some kind of hormonal, mental bonding that takes place. You can say "No strings attached" all you want, but somehow we're wired to make that attachment. Seems like a good idea to not get into that kind of involvement when your plan is to move away.

Loved your comment about how you're still not as fast on your bike as Bolt is on his feet--that guy is amazing!


lisa41076 said...

Mark, hope on October 9'th on CBS you will watch CSI , Grissom hugs Sara for the first time in that episode, Hugs Lisa