Details … details …
Looking at all this stuff, I am wondering what is the point? Me and Mookie came to terms and we want to work this thing out. Period. That I feel butterflies in my stomach and wondering what if I felt this confident back in November is no longer relevant. Here and now, we have decided to keep on pluggin’ (though I did tell her she would HAVE to come off the ring if she asked me to leave!).
I decided to end this saga, not just because it was long, but it held too much negative energy. We want to give things a go, and those uncertainties, as far as where we are headed, are enough. Besides I want to be on the plus side of things, remembering how it nearly came crashing down is doing us a disservice.
There is a journalist out here who is celebrating her 14th year of marriage … a reader announced that they’d been married 43 years. Just amazing. I wish that I could have put up those kind of numbers! Who knows … I wouldn’t mind getting into my mid-20’s. I would take that!
My therapist gave me a book to look thru, and I will be doing that among other things. Mookie’s mood has lifted noticeably, so I am going to go with that. Lil’ Mook and I talked about ‘hugging’ yesterday. I told her that I don’t feel as comfortable giving her hugs … when my girls are around we always hold and touch each other. She said she understood, and then she gave ME a hug.
I have plenty of reading, as along with the book my therapist gave me, I am trying to finish up Clarence Thomas’ book, ‘My Grandfather’s Son’. I try not to chat people up on politics, but the insight I am getting into the Justice is shaping a new opinion of him for me.
It is pretty cold out here … I will get a run in and go turn in my applications at McDonald’s and another position in the Library system. And with that, I am out ..!