Tuesday, February 12, 2008

... move along folks, there isn't anything to see here ..!

Details … details …

Looking at all this stuff, I am wondering what is the point? Me and Mookie came to terms and we want to work this thing out. Period. That I feel butterflies in my stomach and wondering what if I felt this confident back in November is no longer relevant. Here and now, we have decided to keep on pluggin’ (though I did tell her she would HAVE to come off the ring if she asked me to leave!).

I decided to end this saga, not just because it was long, but it held too much negative energy. We want to give things a go, and those uncertainties, as far as where we are headed, are enough. Besides I want to be on the plus side of things, remembering how it nearly came crashing down is doing us a disservice.

There is a journalist out here who is celebrating her 14th year of marriage … a reader announced that they’d been married 43 years. Just amazing. I wish that I could have put up those kind of numbers! Who knows … I wouldn’t mind getting into my mid-20’s. I would take that!

My therapist gave me a book to look thru, and I will be doing that among other things. Mookie’s mood has lifted noticeably, so I am going to go with that. Lil’ Mook and I talked about ‘hugging’ yesterday. I told her that I don’t feel as comfortable giving her hugs … when my girls are around we always hold and touch each other. She said she understood, and then she gave ME a hug.

I have plenty of reading, as along with the book my therapist gave me, I am trying to finish up Clarence Thomas’ book, ‘My Grandfather’s Son’. I try not to chat people up on politics, but the insight I am getting into the Justice is shaping a new opinion of him for me.

It is pretty cold out here … I will get a run in and go turn in my applications at McDonald’s and another position in the Library system. And with that, I am out ..!


malagutigrrl said...

How old is lil Mook?

And I'm with you on the love thing.  You'd never know it by looking at my journal on any given February, but I'm a true romantic at heart whose longest relationship lasted for 5 years and ended 20 years ago.  LOL!  As much as I'd do anything for love, I really must suck at it.  Everyone one leaves.  

Fortunately I'm good at being single.  

As always, hanging on your every word!

lv2trnscrb said...

I'm so glad you and Mookie came to terms and want to work things out!! I hope it goes the best way for you all!! so is that a good book of Clarence Thomas? I have heard about it; I need to get more involved in reading again!

hope your day goes well!


mpnaz58 said...

This entry only reinforces the fact that communication is the KEY to any relationship.  You were feeling...hurt, and so was Mookie, but neither would say it or would say it in the way the other would understand.  We get into that rut sometimes, and my problem is that my husband doesn't say what I need him to say...but I don't tell him that.  How is he supposed to know?  Glad you realized that negative energy wasn't doing you any good :)  And just in time for Valentine's Day!!
xoxo ~Myra

rdautumnsage said...

Ahh...I'm sitting here with a smile. As always it takes two to tango, with both of you working at this, there is hope at the end of the tunnel. Your a lot like me, you'll give it your all till there is nothing to give. I just want you to be happy and content my friend. (Hugs) Indigo