Random Thoughts

I'D GIVE 'EM A SHOT!



Sitting around on a Friday that we are supposed to get a ton of snow ... needed to go run, but I DIDN'T. Instead, I made breakie and hung around the house. Perhaps I will run in the mid afternoon, because I do want to get one in, especially if it is as bad as all that. Don't let the city money woes fool you ... they have RARELY plowed the streets, INCLUDING some of the major streets! Never understood that about Detroit.


Still don't have the link thing down, but recently DB over at Vagabond Journeys made a cool post about writing and how it is like having homework every day. I guess it is true, because I find all sorts of things to write about, but I let a lot of stuff go (and we will get to that in a bit, promise!), and keep on stepping.



Now, AKA and I have begun to talk again. We had stopped talking from the first week of October until 23rd of December. I let her know why I decided to cut her out of my life, and that I was good with that. See, I don't know if anyone knows it or not, but boxing has left me with injury, and sometimes 'things happen'. One of those things is that my short term memory can be sketchy(this, is the 'getting back part). I think that is why I lost the job at the hotel, missing a shift. Anywho, she said something that in effect, was like saying I selectively claim my disability. Cool.


... no really, you WOULDN'T like to see me when I am angry



At that point, no matter what I was feeling for her, no matter how highly or how much I valued her in my life, meant that she was no longer a person that I wanted in my life. Period. She would go to Florida for a couple of weeks, and when she got back in November, she was persona non grata.



Many of us have something. A crap trait or flaw, skewed perspective or sense of self ... something that makes us imperfect. 'Even a chipped cup has its usefulness.' So I have always tried to see the benefit in someone, rather than their impairment. Though as for that, I have had to do more filtering ...



... and AKA was getting caught up in the filter.



I put on my velvet glove, and I told her what I thought of her, and her confused, underachieving ways. Also I told her how it contrasted not only with my hopes, but who I am really. One of the things that I believe in, is that 'getting there' is full of double-backs and detours. The more you can have something you can depend upon, someone you can rely on, the better off you are.



So I told her, that I could no longer depend upon her in her role as a friend in my life. With that, I did dismiss her. Since it was on her initiative, she did get to have her final say.



In short, she apologized. She asked if I wanted to watch the football games at a bar in Ferndale this Sunday. She would have to pick me from church, but with a)the snow coming and b)no funding for the date, it is something that is less likely than it is probable. Not going to 'see' ... if it happens, it happens.

OTHER THAN THAT ...

I am doing quite well. One of the things I have started doing is 'eating what I buy'. Not going out for the quickie combo burger is how I can save money and watch what I eat. This is not saying I don't have some treats, but rather than spending money, I check to see if I have something I can eat ... like spreading nutella on some bread and letting that be that. Eating a bowl of oatmeal with raisins and chocolate chips to fill me up at night, may not be the best way to go about things, but it beats the alternative!

Today's video was suggested for me by You Tube. It is way cool, and it takes me back to college. There is a girl who is going to A&T ... man, when I found that out, a light went on in that area of my memory ... KT is there, and I still feel Greensboro, even if all I can really remember is running down Battleground Ave, and going to the Dessertery!

Enjoy y'all weekend!