... delete an entry.
I tend to 'read' before I write. A couple of entries kind of got into my thought process. The one by a lovely Senorita, was a take on the profiles some men post on the single sites. She did a 'what they say and what they mean' kind of entry, and while it was funny, one of the cats she was 'jonesin' on, sounded eerily similar ...
One of the reasons that I have preferred to walk up and talk to someone that looks interesting, is that is a 'pass or fail' kind of course. The single sights, while no doubt a valid way to meet people ( I know of several folks 'here' and on line that have enjoyed success doing that), also have a lot of 'questionable characters' on there, and that isn't just for women searching men.
I do feel that meeting someone in the flesh, I can get a better reading on them, as they could get a better 'feel' on me. Still, her humor made me a little self-conscious. There are times where I wish I had a little bit more of, IDK, something that would let the chica's take me more seriously, or view me differently.
Since I never found out what 'seriously' or 'differently' were, I long ago stopped worrying about that. Still, once every year or so, I worry that I am not 'enough' of something. Then I go on and get back into character.
... then over at Nutwood ...
Beth had mentioned some cat who screeded about some brother who's take was quite radical regarding Barack Obama. I wrote something that was not worth the effort it took to type it, and wished that I could have it back. That is a 'boots on the ground' kind of discussion, because it is nuanced. My writing isn't smooth enough to cover that kind of conversation, so I should have let it alone.
Prolly cause I wasn't talking about what IS on my mind.
SPORTS ... as LIFE
In the three sports who's season spans lengths on the calendar, hockey, basketball, and baseball, there is a lot of talk about 'hitting the wall'. The season stretches across the calendar, across the country and international borders. It is long in a very real sense.
Coastal road trips and back to back games in hostile environments. Separation from familiar faces and places. Gets tiring, when 'the same ol' is the same old in that it isn't what you normally put up with.
'Change' is a lot like those 'west coast road trips' that teams from the East seem to have such a dread of. Right now, I have hit a 'dead spot in the schedule', and I am trying to work to February, when I can get out of this 'funk'.
There are times where you have to keep to your faith, and not worry so much about anything else. Others have made changes in their lives, and gone on to flourish. Yet right now, with the weather and being a little bit away from where I want to be...
ALWAYS DO THE RIGHT THING
Instead of excusing myself and making the easy choice in lieu of the best choice, there is always a third way. Though there is never an excuse not to act, you don't always have to press the issue. 'In the defense', waiting and making sure you don't go back to where you have came from, you are doing something to advance yourself.
As for setbacks ... don't worry about them. There hasn't been an unbeaten basketball team, and no one started playing ball and finished in September 162-0! I don't think that the Wings of the 90's matched up all their president's trophies with Stanley Cups.
In other words, it doesn't matter if you stay on the road, because if it is the right road for you to be on, you only need to believe you will get there, for it all to matter. And you have to do so, in spite of the hardship you face. Period.
Man, you know for such a pansy, I certainly talk tough!!
Live free or die: Death is not the worst of evils. - Gen. John Stark
That is how I feel. To live under the expectations and limits of others is like a death. I won't let myself think that I am a 'dead man walking'. I choose to live my life, take the seemingly stupid risks that I plan to take, and keep on until I get my 'final orders from DA'!
Again, apologies to those who I may have offended with my comments in their journals. Wasn't quite myself when I woke up this morning.
5 comments:
In between here and there, where I have been most of my life, home is the place I'm going to, not where I'm going back to. That may be the way it is in baseball, but look at the route. I think the best kind of profile one can spell out is by being perfectly honest about one's self. But no one wants to read that. I'm personally glad to be out of the romance loop. And it's not depressing. D
Mark, I can delete your comment if you want me to (you can delete your own comments, too, for that matter), but I thought it was instructive and interesting. It seems to me that it's something that needs to be examined and addressed, and hopefully overcome.
But if you do want me to delete it, just drop me a line.
Hugs, Beth
I do not think you ever need to appologize here, we are all family :o)
like Beth said, Mark, you can always delete a comment you leave in a journal (do you know how to do that? you just click on the little trash can symbol by your comment and it will give you the option to delete the comment)
we all have our days when we aren't quite ourselves; don't ever worry about deleting an entry too; I always figure when an entry is deleted there was some problem getting something right with it, graphics etc.
February is literally around the corner! two weeks from today! within your reach; I just hope it proves to be a warmer one with hopes of lifting your mood a bit; at least the days are staying lighter longer :)
betty
Ok here comes the part that is probably why you doubt I can be shy in real life...
I sure as hell hope you don't delete the comment. Maybe in retrospect it wasn't how you wanted to word it later on. But at that moment in that mindset, that was what was coming out of you.
I just went through that whole, what the hell thing...with various comments that have been left to me. Those were assuming, unfriendly observations. You my friend have always read the entry fully, taken the time to appreciate what was said, before you comment. There is a big difference between you and quite a few other idiots out there (not saying your one, you get what I mean).
Finally Between the people who comment here and those that are online friends (all of us are family in some format). If we can't give you some grace for one objective thought on one of our post. That's not saying a lot for us is it? I know without a doubt I'm not that way. I do try to give some grace and consideration to the person who made the comment.
Guess it wasn't my final thought...
If you start deleting comments, your going to question your view and what you have to say on everything. I don't want you to start doing that to yourself. Yeah, I'm loud at times...just thinking of you here. (Hugs)Indigo
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