More 'Dog'

One of the things that I really miss about the 'Empire Records' of the metro area, is that there isn't a Harmony House near me.

Harmony House was THE local record outlet, and if they didn't have it, it meant one thing -- you made it up! They had every piece of recorded music since the dawn of time, and if it wasn't on hand, they could get it for you, no worries.

I don't know if this is a promo thingy for an agency or what. But from the different looks of the girls, to the stylized way they speak the lyrics of such a short, incredibly intense (is it overkill to use 'intense' with anything of iggy pop?) jam like 'Dog' is way cool.

Like how they 'disassemble' the 'Well, come on' girl near the end of the video.

YEAH, INTENSE

This does come into my mind when it comes to a relationship. I like to think that I am calm on my surface, but fueled by ... it isn't anger, that much I know. When anger is the primary ignition source, it burns out too quickly. When ever it does come up, I think it gets diffused (ooh, good word there ..!) and it finds more useful purposes. When I would fight, I never would be worried when the other guy would get mad ... any hockey fan will tell you, an agitated opponent is a distracted opponent.

Someone who is mad, is no longer focused and can be manipulated into a mistake. Since mistakes happen, getting angry does you little good. And if I am going to be angry, then I am really going to tighten up on what I am supposed to be trying to do.

In my marriage, I think that was an area we really, really disagreed on, how we should resolve our differences. People try to be mad, whatever with me and I don't let it fade me one bit. At least I won't let you see it. The only time anyone knows how angry I am, is at the moment I have decided to do something about it, savvy?

She had anger issues ... might have just been with me though. Anywho, if something happens where I am angry, then I try to get to where whatever it is DOESN'T make, or have the ability to, make me angry.

Like dealing with and establishing my 'new normal'.

Because I do have the ability to focus on something and make it happen, I make sure I remember as much of the positive as I can. I can remember telling myself when I made it through Air Assault school, that it didn't kill me!

Failure is not final. If you get knocked down, get back up. Since I have experinced the latter, I know that to be true. I try get back up, no matter how hard I have been hit.

WHY THE NEBRASKA CONCEPT IS THE BEST OF ALL OPTIONS

Because it is new. It is difficult. It will be a test. And it pulls on me.

Not looking forward to explaining to my Dad, why he is schlepping me some million miles to nowhere. My knees are knocking as see myself standing on the edge of some farm, trying to get a ride into the nearest town with a telegraph (smile, big smile!).

Happiness is more of a place ... and if you aren't looking for it, you will never find it. Once, I saw it in here, with Tee Jay and that was the only time I ever saw it in Detroit. Things are fuzzy now ... and I don't do 'fuzz'. Because I did think there would be some of that when I started to chart my course, I made sure to put the Nebraska Concept first, because there was less fuzz to it.

Betty has reaffirmed the sense that I have regarding my life ... keep working on what needs to be worked on, and let the 'whatevers', work themselves out. I liked hearing that from someone, because a lot of times, even with 9 billion walking around with you, it is easy to feel like you are alone, alone with your feelings, alone with your sensibilities, alone with your experiences.

But you aren't. And what you do have to do, if you want to improve things, is try.

LAST WORD ON THE STORY

I hate that I know the end.