Saturday, December 29, 2007

... the Talking Heads

I actually wanted to be angry, mad even.  Not at any particular thing or for a reason other than to get it out of my system.  Looking on the bright side of things does have its pitfalls, and one of them is possible denial.

If I have said it once, I have said it a hundred times.  I am no longer happy in my current relationship.  But I won't detail the issues, because if they have to come out, that means I need to take action.  Now is not the time for action.  There are things that I have to do, and I better get them done.

Yes, I am still bothered by the cat fighting on the television the other day.  Went on a nice run this morning, then rode out to the library ... still have that 'feeling'.  Can't describe it, but I know it doesn't make me feel good.  Do I wish I was still boxing ..? 

Yes.

That I am dealing with my issues alone when ... aw, forget it ... no crying in baseball ..!

Nebraska is a New Year's baby!  Now isn't that special!  I hope she really gets out and does the darn thing!  Me, not so much.  I don't get celebratory over myself, which is part of why there is no scrapbook, no pictures.  Good thing Sir Edmund climbed Everest, had I done it, no one would have known!

1 comment:

toonguykc said...

I don't know if people who think alot (not that there's anything wrong with that) ever feel content or "happy" in a relationship.  The expectations can kill ya.  So I stopped expecting and wondering and just settled in with my partner.   A good idea?  Maybe not.  But maybe....

Russ