I feel like I feel today. Now sometimes, I feel a little worn and concerned with my 'what's what'. Last week and already this week I had a couple of things that are less than cool ('less than good' same thing, BUT they are different from 'less than zero' which was a way cool book before it was a Robert Downey's vehicle ... you know my ex wife liked the movie but WOULD NOT read the book? Go figure... but I digress...), but then I decided to 'cowboy up' and drive the hell on.
ABOUT THESE 'GENERAL ORDERS'
Wouldn't life have been great if it came with an instruction book? Though there are a good many who do believe there are instructions written down, but for the rest of us, you don't really know what is going on, and you are allowed to pick and choose, and try to figure things out.
One of the points of emphasis for me in going thru this particular leg of my journey, is that they are 'general'. Not specific, although they touch on specifications, when orders are 'special'.
Sometimes, goofing with my nephew and his friends, I show them a few moves, and explain why these basic things tend to work an overwhelming percentage of the time. Sometimes, a light goes on in their heads ... and I tell them that this is what you fall back on OR you can lead with, it doesn't matter. They are general moves and are always going to achieve a certain result.
WHAT YOU KNOW, WHAT YOU KNOW
I don't accept the crap things I have done for the sake of accepting them. One or two small things go a different way, and who knows where I would be? But what I believe in my life, who ever is 'in charge' of it, whatever deity or spirit or what have you, they have been in clear contact with me. And yes, Abigail, they 'talk' to me and put me on the path I should be on, and they provide me with the choices. It is up to me to make the decision.
Since everybody came back, the movie 'Apollo 13' showed how despite their individual characteristics, their training is what they fell back on (guarding everything within the limits of my post ...). There were moments where they had to improvise, and they did not give in to panic, but continued to execute (... obey my special orders and perform my duties in a military manner.)
That last part of the second General Order, 'performing duties in a military manner', I think is very important. It has been said by someone smarter than me, that often it isn't WHAT someone says in critique that offends one, but HOW.
Up in space, the margin for error was less than paper thin. The reason that you do things in a certain way, that you discipline your mind and body, is because when you are miles above the Earth, you can't be 'gettin' 'er done'. That is not good enough. I think of Gen. Yeager talking about fear, and how he doesn't allow for it, because if you have fear, it will interfere with you doing a good job. Men will die.
And that movie, that it DID happen, let's everyone understand what is meant by 'no fear' as far as Gen. Chuck Yeager is concerned. Had those cats allowed for fear, had ANYONE at ground control let that most false emotion, that impostor take hold ...
Nebraska gets 'chippy' when we trade email or chat, because I will say something silly, about how 'I hope this is not going to be and internet tragedy'. The last time, I realized that it wasn't funny, and it had no basis in any reality that I currently exist in, or plan on living in. I stopped, and it won't happen again.
Because honestly, for me, like many of my moments at crossroads, the choices clear and come into sharper focus. And that is what is happening now. I can't be getting all wishy washy ... these are decisions that will echo for the rest of my life.
HAPPY UP HERE
Uh, actually I am. Things are falling into place, and I have made it past another hard winter! That is why I picked that video to play for today. I listen to a lot of stuff like this ... things that make me feel good.
Went to the store the other day to try on some jeans. The song that was playing, 'Sunshie' by Keane came on, and I was like 'I love that song'! The girl working the dressing rooms, turned it up while I was in there ... what is it about songs that you like sounding better when you hear them out in the world, organically?
Anywho ... y'all have the best day ... I have given myself no other choice but to have a good day!!
5 comments:
life did come with an instruction book, Mark, just a lot of people don't feel the need to read it or believe in the author of it
so glad you "weathered" (excuse the pun) the tough winter and you can see signs of spring and hope and perhaps change ahead!!
betty
Neat song, and it IS a happy one! Super cool video, too.
I hope your day ended up being superb. It's up over 60° here, and I have the sliding glass door open part-way. I can't begin to tell you how good this feels!
Hugs, Beth
Glad that your general order is currently making you happy :o)
Being chill is the way to go. I am more chill than I used to be, for sure. Over the years I managed to pull the proverbial broomstick out of my ass.
You commented on my blog earlier about me and Ashliegh meeting each other through my blog.
We didn't meet through my blog. We met because we used to be coworkers.
I love the ending sentiments, "I'm going to have a good day, because I'm not giving myself any other choice." I need to remember that on so many levels. (Hugs)Indigo
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